They do not last forever

Assalamualaikum. Oh, I really missed my blog. It's been quite some time I abandon my blog. The word "abandon" is painful actually, but that's exactly what I've been doing past these several months. Okay, so what have I been through all these months while keeping my blog untouched? Hurm, I've done with my Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. No longer a candidate, no longer a high school student. Somehow, the fact of that made me lonely.

I miss my school, I miss my class. I miss everyone of my classmates, the teachers, homeworks, text books. Oh god, I can't believe how much I miss all those. I feel like there's a hole inside my chest. I can't believe that my high school moments have already ended. I'm kinda lost right now. I want to move on, but I'm still wondering how. The thought of letting go of my high school moments is awfully painful. Maybe that's not the right way to do. I'm still wondering.

I watched Les Miserables last week. It is a musical movie based on the novel with the same name. The movie was beautiful and words can't describe how beautiful and how moving the story is. I can't let the movie out of my head. The story is tragic, sad, painful, romantic and beautiful at same time. I really love the movie. I wish to watch it again and again. I literally cried watching the movie. I love how they did with the storyline. They kept it short but it left a big impact. I can understand the emotion of Cossette when Jean Valjean dies. Their lives are always been Cossette and her god father, Jean Valjean. Jean Valjean and his adopted daughter, Cossette. It has always been the two of them. The happiness they shared, the sadness they have been through. In their lives, they only have each other. So, during the scene where Jean Valjean dies, I can't contain myself. I just cried. To me, it was so sad to lose someone that very dear in one's life. There are so many interesting and beautiful yet painful scene in the movie. just watch it.

Najid went to PLKN last week and I'm lonely.

I rewatch the entire X-men film series out of boredom. When I watch X-men First Class, I thought that the end of it, Charles Xavier is hurt emotionally and physically. He lost his sister, he lost his best friend. He lost the ability to walk by his feet. I don't think he can cope with himself after that for a while. I think it is painful to lost family member and best friend at the same time. It's hurt. But, when I watch X-men The Last Stand, it was Erik Lensherr hurt the most. He lost his trusted ally, his best friend dies before his eyes. He lost his pride when his mutation is suppressed by a "cure". It was tragic. I don't know what it feels to lost best friend, but I do know what it feels when there is no one waiting for me. It's painful and lonely. After all the "rewatching" session, I think X-men is quite tragic and sad. Erik Lensherr still consider Charles as his best friend. He defends him by saying Charles had helped mutants more than anyone would know. He keeps reciting Charles name in his action indicating that he loves his friend. A beautiful yet broken friendship.

I don't know what am I doing actually. I'm trapped inside an emotional game. I don't know if I can take it properly or I'll be emotionally broken. I don't know. Finishing school make me emotional. I know I shouldn't take the emotions too deep, but things around me don't distract me as I need.

Okay, I think I should stop. Assalamualaikum