Just some talk

Hurm,

I think I'm too secretive with other (am I?) Hurm, Actually I really want to talk as much as possible about Japan, fanboying, life or other exciting stuff, but well, sometimes things got interrupted. I really want some time to talk these days.Yeah, I'm too busy of studying for the upcoming pra PMR which makes me really hard to get close with my friend just to talk. Maybe I'm just being selfish.

Oh well, that's because I'm going to have BIG exam by october. Why is there a need for all form 3 students to take this PMR exam? It's not like we're not having test all the way to form 3 and now we're going to stressed out studying because of that stupid exam!

YEAHHHH!

Finally I got myself altogether again. huh~ Just muttering around to let out what inside my head talk about the exam. It's not like I'm opposing PMR. Just letting out what my head got to say about PMR. Actually I'm quite nervous with this PMR thingy. I want to achieve my goal to make my parents proud of my. I'm scared if I don't get what my parents expect me to got.

huhuhu

I want to talk about something else like why does people always fill their head with some silly thought whenever they got into somekind of trouble? Yeah I know, people are not away from troubles but, why does people always thinking about unnecessary things? Why can't they think with some rational thought? I'm sick with those people. Some of them kill their self when meeting troubles that they can't solve. So they think their problems are going to solve if they commit suicide? They are really stupid of they do that.

Another thing I want to talk about.  Actually, I really want to talk about Japanese celebrities. I want to talk about them so badly but I can't get people who are the same kind like me. I want to talk about my fandom without awkward. I want that! I really want to talk my heart out!

My heart start to feel the pain of keeping the extra excitements without telling anyone

Then, I want to tell something to my close friends

Minna, I never put any of you in some kind of 1st friend 2nd friend or something like that. I take all of you as equal. I don't think there's should be like that. I think friends should be treated like friends. There's no such ranking as 1st friend or 2nd friend. Friend should be friends. Friends should be treated as equal to other friends. That is what I thought about friend. Friend shouldn't make you suffer even if you request for it. Friend should be an encouragement to yourself.

Maa, what am I saying? Don't take me wrong. I just want to let all the thought that I was keeping from all of you. It seems that I can't hold this anymore. Sometimes tears are coming from my eyes  when such events were recalled in my mind. I really need someone to talk about my feeling.

Yeah, I know I look like a happy guy seems like not having any problems when I was at school. To tell you what. I'm also a human being, I have problems. But I don't let anyone knows about it very often. I want someone who is care for me. Someone who makes me feel appreciated.

I think. I want to talk no more for today. It's not like I'm really talking. It just some talk 

*smile*