I'm back

Assalamualaikum guys. Sorry for being un-updated for such a long time without any warning. Actually, it was unintended. I just have no idea what to update on this blog plus I'm being lazy~ hehe.

Okay, first and foremost, I'm officially 17 and currently waiting for my L licence. yay! I can't wait for the P. Then I can go to school by a car, with me driving it xD! So, as a senior, I'm very interested to ignore all my juniors. I don't want to know anything about them, thank you.

I won the debate for Amal Islami eventhough I was having a fever. I'm awesome.

I think I'm gonna start managing the school magazine. I mean about the contents. I bet it will be awesome and tiring.

I don't know what else to say, so Assalamualaikum.

Help me with my homework?

Assalamualaikum. Okay, this entry is related to my English homework because of the same reason of the last entry, I don't have any idea when I see the normal work book. Apparently my last post is a bit off from the actual topic, so this entry will be the topic that I was suppose to write.

So the main idea is "A person that made an impression on me". That person will be Najihah Yusof. I'll be writing my impression on her. Well, this is a great chance to talk about her. hehe.

Her real name is Nurul Najihah binti Mohammed Yusof. She is currently living in Kluang, Johor and she shared the same age as my younger sister, 1 year younger than me. We have never met eyes to eyes. We met on a quite famous social network back then. I was 14 on that moment which made her 13 when we start to know each other. We shared the same hobby and interest. Back then, we were so childish and so into Japanese animation and things related to that. We always had topics to be debated over. She is my female best friend I ever had.

The fact that she is 1 year younger than me really amuses me because her way of thinking is very matured if compare to other kids her age. She never had the interest like other teenagers whether in fashion trend or other mainstream trend. She always sticks with her point of view instead of listening to others. Her maturity made her very open-minded about any issues. I'm quite amazed by her writing style when we're having a debate or discussion about some on-going issue. She doesn’t mind to use her sarcastic comments when we're on some issue. It's rare to see kids like this. Her mind is really interesting.

Her voice is very unique and she has the talent to become a lawyer like she always wants to be. She can talk fluently in English and I know she can speak Mandarin. Some kids tend to comment that she likes to show off her English skill as sometimes she slips into English whenever she was talking. I don't think she should be commented like that. To me, it's a good thing she speaks in English sometimes because it would help her to have a better pronunciation. Some students are great in English writing, but most of them face a problem when they want to speak English terms. I think she's really good in choosing words, she have a firm tone and really like to debate on something educational.

She is extremely shy with boys. She can chat with me normally and have a long conversation because we're never met outside on the virtual world. Our friendship is a mere social networking best friend because if we meet each other, that would be very awkward. If she was walking and meets a boy on her way, she would turn back and uses the alternative way to get to her destination even if it will take a longer time than the first way.

She really loved her family, teachers and friend. There was once she called me by the phone and almost burst to tears when she told me that her most beloved teacher passed away right before the day that her PMR result was going to be announced. She doesn't make it to tell her teacher about her result. I was very sympathy with her that I felt bad for her when she told me about that. She loved her parents and her siblings very much. She has a really good relationship with her cousins and really happy around them. She is very careful with her friends and tried to prevent herself from hurting her friend physically or mentally.

She's very interesting and fun to be friend with. She's sarcastic, clever and very open-minded. She possess a happy character and very funny. There were a lot of times she told embarrassing stories about herself. I couldn't help myself but to laugh. She's a good kid and very obedient to her parents.

Random talk

Assalamualaikum. My school days have reached the fifth day even though I didn't go to school yesterday because of my sister's matter. I don't know what to say about my new class. I'm kinda have some sort of hatred towards the girls in the class. I don't like girls who are using inappropriate words towards others. I missed my old class, 4 Ma'wa. It was a better class for me.

Ehem2. Actually, I'm gonna do my English homework, but ideas won't come to me whenever I look at the brown book. Whether I don't like the book or I spent too much time on the internet to let all my ideas into a writing on a blog rather in a book. So I guess, I just need to do the homework here and then I'll take it into the book. Some genius I am. narcissist

Okay, the question given: describe a person who made an impression on you.

I don't really understand the question because I'm used to the question "first impression" instead of just an impression. So I'm just gonna talk randomly here and take notes on what's important.

A person who made an impression on me is usually a man/woman who is very kind to others even in public. I've seen a girl who help a disable old man from getting wet from the rain. She was the only person among hundreds of people who has the courage and the heart to help people in need. I was quite moved with her action and made me believe in humanity again after the 2 years child incident in China.

 Person who made an impression on me would sometimes being a handsome Chinese guy who dressed in Visual Kei fashion style. The style is very uncommon around Malaysia and people who dressed like that are easilly to be spotted because the fashion style is very obvious. I don't want to lie to my self so, actually I really thought visual kei people are really cool plus the piercing on the lips and always make me amazed how good looking them all with all the stuff on his body and face. Yes, I know it is Haram for Muslim and I will never be like that including the piercing. It's a no no.

There are people who always made an impression to me and that person would always be a lady. A girl who wears gown with a polite attitude and very graceful with her movement to walk or eat is nice to see. This kind of girl also could call a lady. Dressed in a gown would make her seems very elegant and a rightful manners in talking or working would always leave an impression to other people as a noble lady.

I don't want to spend a lot more time here, so the last one is the person who is very intelligent and knows many thing about things around the world. This kind of person is the one who I'm very admire and can have some fun as well. Conversation about facts around the world or the general information should always be fun if I got person like that beside of me. I would be very amazed if the person could talk five or more language.

These kind of people would always leave a strong impression on me. Maybe because I want to be like that or I want to be friend with people like that or just because I like watching those kind of people.

First day

Assalamualaikum. It seems today is my first day of schooling this year and the last year I'm in that school. How do I feel as a form 5 student? I don't know. I feel lost. I feel excited and worried at the same time. Excited being a senior student but I'm worried about how I'm gonna be through out the year.

I'm worried about my co-curricular activities. How the heck I'm supposed to lead my club and my team? I'm nervous. I'm nervous thinking about my studies and SPM.

I've been organizing my schedule for January till March and it's a bizzare. Starting this Saturday, I'll be entering my course for motorcyle driving licence for L. Next week, I'm probably gonna take the computer test and the following Saturday, I will need to listen for pra-L licence lecture (if I pass the computer test) and after that, I will apply for P licence. According to my calculation, during my course for the P licence, I will officially be a 17 years old teen~ yay! and That's mean after I got my P licence for motorcycle, I'll be taking pra-L course for car because I officially can drive one. After that, I'll be practising to drive a car for at least 2 weeks or 3 weeks and will have JPJ test after that. So, on my every Saturday, I'll be in driving school for maybe 3 month. How the heck I'm gonna rest? My mother orders me to take driving licence so that it will be easy for me to go to school or library or some seminar because this year is a busy year for me and my family.

I don't want to reveal all my schedules here, these are just some of them. So, I'll be very busy on this first three month and I don't want mention about exams yet for us, form 5 student. Oh shut up, I don't want to think about this now. Assalamualaikum.

My 2011

Assalamualaikum. Today is the last day of 2011 and I'm very excited to enter the new year of 2012. So, in the year of 2011, I've done a lot of thing, either nice or bad and I have my love on my class 4 Ma'wa. I really love the class and all my classmates. I'll missed our time together in 2011. Thinking about a new class without them made me feel lonely. This is the first time in my life that I really love the whole class. They were very interesting, funny and very friendly.

There was Abdullah Azim who was the heart of the class. Without him even in a single day would made the class in dismal. The guy is very cheerful and would make us laugh with his joke without letting anyone feel annoyed. There was our class monitor, Zulfadhli with an interesting personalities which were very unexpected and out going. He went well along Abdullah Azim's jokes and have good comprehensible of the class and the people inside it. He was quite funny at times when he feel embarrassed of the teachers, feel nervous and worried. I don't know what am I saying but those moments made feels that he was cute being like that *laugh*.

4 Ma'wa was a cheerful class and the whole class respect the teachers. There was once that we hurt our Malay language teacher until her to cry. Actually, we just talked a little bit during her lectures and unexpectedly, she was in not-a-good-mood and snapped at us and start to cry and left the class. We felt very guilty that we made a card for her to ask her forgiveness in several language, even in korean. Yeah, we realised that she doesn't want that. She want us to give more respect to people in front of us. Students in 4 Ma'wa weren't too talkative but it was after one week holiday, so what do you expect? But all of us learn from our mistake and try to respect teachers more. 4 Ma'wa learn from mistakes and eventually, at the end of school 2011, we were awarded with the most well behaved and discipline class in 2011. Actually, I was expecting that but I was not really sure about that. When the award was announce, I cracked a smile and felt very proud as one of the students in 4 Ma'wa.

Being in 4 Ma'wa is the best gift in 2011. I really love this year and my class. I hope we can make a reunion or a feast. Dear 4 Ma'wa I love all of you even if this sounds gay *laugh*.

The year of 2012 will be tough. We will receive our SMA result in January 20 and I hope I can get a good result. I will face the SPM and I will graduate in the year of 2012. I'll do my best in the new year to get the best result and make my parents proud of me. I hope I wont be disappointing anyone.

To all my friend in facebook, it seems that I've been friend with some of you like Saiya, Anne Azkah, Nami, Najihah Yusof, Maryam Nazeeha, Kei, Misha, Memin Nasir, Hime and Deathscythe for a year or maybe more. I would like to pray for our friendship to never breaks up. We knew each other in sosial network and it last till now. I really appreciate our friendship. Maybe some of us not really close to each other but we never act like stranger right? We still acknowledge each other presence. That is what the most important for me.

For my friends at SAMTiSH, I never forget you guys. Najid, Luqman, Nafis, Zulhilmi and others. Excuse me if I don't mention your name here.

So, I wish all of you HAPPY NEW YEAR! AKEMASHITE OMEDETOU! *fireworks*

May Allah bless you through out the new year InsyaAllah.

1 litre of tears

Assalamualaikum. Recently I watched the J-drama that was very popular back then. It was adapted from a diary of a young girl who was diagnosed with spinocerebellar Degeneration during she was 15. It is a sad drama about her life. A story about Kito Aya.

I couldn't believe myself that I cried watching the drama. I really thought I can prevent myself from bursting to tears, but I can't help it. It was really sad that I can't forget the whole story for several days. Whenever I woke up, the first thing I'd remember is 1 litre of tears. I don't think the story should be named 1 LITRE of tears. I think the whole country can experience a horrendous flood if all the citizens watch the drama at the same time.

I wish to read the novel which is the diary of Kito Aya. I wish to read it. My eyes would be swollen if I manage to get my hands on the book. I don't know how Aya really feel during the time she was alive, but I know, she was very strong despite being very sick. I wonder how many tears had fallen from her eyes. The story of her life made me cherish my life more. If I was in her place, I would be very sad. Ahh, even now, I feel like crying when I remember the drama. It's not even regarding my life, why should I cry? I feel stupid and guilty at the same time when I feel my tears are falling. I don't understand this.




The whole things begin

I want to watch 1 litre of tears. I promise my self I wouldn't cry. I promise.

Luqman: Please tell me I'm not crying *sobs*
Malfujitaka: You're not crying.
Luqman: Thank you.
Malfujitaka: . . . . . . . .
Luqman:  . . . . . . . . .
Malfujitaka: . . . . You're crying.
Luqman: Curse you, I'm not.
Malfujitaka: . . . . . . . .
Luqman: Uwaaa! this is so saaaad
Malfujitaka: =_="

Nafis Jamil

Assalamualaikum. I think this is the first person after Najihah and Najid that I mention the name in my blog. Well, this will be my first male friend that I make an entry about. I know him since I was in form 1. But I don't befriend with him back then. Someone just introduced us. So yeah, Nafis Jamil is just someone I knew.

The story is a about me being friend with him after I got to be in the same class with him. My first impression of him were "passive, arrogant, good looking, and religious". I'm very awkward with him. I don't know what to chat everytime I was with him. It was awkward. His nonchalant good looking face somehow made me pissed off. I thought he was very arrogant and look down upon others. Plus him being a passive student. Urgh, that make me angry. What's wrong with him? tch.

Despite all that, I brought myself to chat with him. I don't know what was gotten into me. I just get off my place and sit near him. I thought I will be getting a lot of lectures from him about religion, but it doesn't happen much. I can still talk about something else with him, about technologies, about stupid things, about games. I don't know that he was so into games. Then I realised, how silly I am. Nafis is just a a normal teenager with a normal life. I feel so stupid realising the truth. I laughed at myself.

Being friend with Nafis is very fun. He is someone whom I find very interesting and sarcastic at times. The first friend who matched the criteria of a friend that I am looking for. Well, not that he matched all the criteria, but at least matched more than 50 percent of the percentage. To me, he is very mysterious. I don't think I know him inside out. I'm still in the process of finding his true self.

We became a lot closer recently. Everytime we're together, we are always talking about something, always. It became a routine. I feel the need to talk him him everyday. I never get bored when I have someone like him beside me. I've befriended with me not even a year, but I told him some of my private life which are very private that only certain people know about it. Something that even my son doesn't know about it.

I opened myself to befriend with him. I opened my story to him. Seriously, being around him and how I can be like that around him is a mystery. I bet when he read this entry, he'll be laughing and said to himself "I'm myterious? You got to me kidding me". I'm very sure that will come out from his mouth. I'm very sure.

But well, I think this is a reoccuring event for me. Me being cling too much at him makes me at a dangerous state. I'm not saying that he's bringing me bad influence. It's just my bad trait that I'm scared. Everytime I'm being too close with my friend makes me affectionate to my friend that I'm scared of leaving them. I hate of that thought. Well, next year maybe Nafis will be making some changes for himself. I don't know what kind of friend I am for supporting every desicion he'd make, but I think I can manage myself to be close with him but not too afectionate to him or any of my friends. Really, when I'm become affectionate, I'll be lonely if there were no friends wating for me. That is the kind of emotion I don't want to feel.

Anyway, Nafis is a good kid and a good friend. He doesn't bring any bad influence to me. It just me being hard. Being friend with Nafis is very fun because we kinda have same interest. What kind of interest? Let it remain secret *laugh*. It is nothing, silly.